Posted by on July 17, 2012
Below are a series of videos of Wayne Blakey’s personal journey back to Christ.
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Are very good. Thanks, but, if this videos were with subtitles.. Would be great… for to much people is difficult to understand and is more easy to read… This is my case.. !!!. Blessings!!
I’m sorry I’m not able to provide that. But I appreciate your comment.
One thing was confusing and I was wondering if you would be able to clear it up for me. You said when you were very young you would run around the house screaming ‘I hate women! I hate women!” and didn’t want any of the women to hold you. But then you said that later you would run around the house saying you wanted to be a girl.
That sounds contradictory. You hated women but then wanted to be one shortly thereafter? Please explain.
Excellent question and thanks for recognizing that. My mother only wanted a girl from pregnancy onward. When I was born, she kept trying to fit me into her world as a girl, but abused me in the process. One of those ways being … breaking my arm.
So you see how I could hate her at the time and other women in the process of growing up. … but still trying to be what would make me acceptable… a girl.
I grew up .. never measuring up to being what was expected of me. I kept trying … but saw myself as a failure. Deep inside the chemistry just wouldn’t kick in with intimacy for a woman.
I’m still broken … yet healing in Jesus and I would not turn any woman away that Jesus put before me that is according to His plan. But if that isn’t His plan, I am happy to remain celibate as Jesus calls us to be outside of His clear plan for intimacy.
Hope that helps.
Thanks for replying so quickly. One other thing I wanted to ask you…you said while you were growing up you talked to pastors/teachers about your “gay feelings” (I know you didn’t say “gay feelings,” but that’s kind of how it came across), and that all they could tell you was that is was sin but they could never tell you what to do about it.
I’m slightly confused on that part considering that Jesus told the woman caught in adultery to ‘go and sin no more’ (John 8:11). All throughout the Bible God tells his people not to sin. God even tells Cain in Genesis 4:7 that sin “desires to have you, but you must master it.” (NIV) God doesn’t tell him what to do about it, just to not sin.
I guess I’m asking what it was they could have told you other than it was sin? It kind of seems that “homosexuality is sin–don’t do it” isn’t good enough for gay people even though “adultery is sin–don’t do it” or “taking God’s name in vain is sin–don’t do it” or “(fill-in-the-blank) is sin–don’t do it” is all us ‘straight’ people get.
I know you mentioned you are trying to deal with hyper-sensitivity too, so please know I’m honestly not trying to offend you. I don’t hardly ever get the chance to talk to a reformed gay person and usually have to deal with the standard “I was born this way–” or “God made me this way–so I can’t change” lines, and I really do want to know what you think.
You also said later in your video that after 40 years you came back to the church but the church still seemed not to be able to relate to your situation. Were you expecting something else other than “homosexuality is a sin–don’t do it”? Again, I’m just asking because that’s all God ever says to us (straight or gay), “Take your evil deeds out of my sight! Stop doing wrong, learn to do right!” (Isaiah 1:16, 17)
Please know that I really am wanting your thoughts on these questions because I just read through what I wrote again and I fear that some of it might offend you, and I don’t want to do that or to dampen your ministry.
No need to apologize. But thanks for recognizing the sensitivity of it. Your observations and questions are the very things I (we) under prayer and guidance of the Holy Spirit, seek to address in our seminar/presentations. You may be interested in our upcoming seminar/presentation that will be carried live on 3angelslive.com October 5th and 6th. 7PM PST on the 5th and all day on the 6th.
1 Peter 4:10 says “Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God’s grace in its various forms.” and James 5:16 tells us to confess our sins one to another and pray for each other so that we may be healed.
We live in an age where “feelings” are encouraged to dictate truth. If you feel it, it must be right? Or at least that is how Satan works. We didn’t do a very good job about asking people to check their feelings with the Word of God and what to do with them if they don’t match up to His plan.
In fact today, the whole world seems to be trying to rewrite the Word of God according to the flesh. In the past, the church has done an awesome job at quoting scripture and getting in people’s faces and pointing out what God’s Word says. And that is where it has stopped. Kind of like … it says it … so accept it.
We are called to minister one to another. Feelings are very real. And unless we learn at a very young age what to do with feelings that are not from God, we are going to be in a whole heap of trouble.
As a child, I not only needed to know that my feelings were not matching up with God’s plan, I needed to bring them to Jesus and give them over to Him and seek to do His will instead of my own. I needed people to pray around me and with me for strength and healing. I didn’t need someone to know that I was different than them and to sit in the balcony at church to avoid getting close to me because I was weird.
But see what has been going on is that others have always suffered from their own feelings and sin temptations and we were not supporting them and lifting them up to God either.
Today even pastors are a little reluctant at times to lend an ear to what God has laid on our hearts. How could God choose such a sinner with such a past to teach and share about what God intended for us right?
Humility is not popular, but I believe it is what we are called to in order to be effective servants of God. We need to all come before the cross where we are all level and seek God together. We need to meet in one another’s homes and become community with each other. Support and show genuine love … the love of Jesus to each other.
When I came back after forty years… I was still considered to be just as odd and leperous as I was when I was 16. “Homosexuality?” No… hush… be quiet. We don’t talk about that and that topic has been known to divide churches… so just keep it to yourself.
I have traveled great distances to speak… only to be told that I would not be allowed to speak because of someone squelching the topic before I got there.
This type of silence goes well beyond homosexuality. We don’t talk about any sexual purity issue. Although.. I will say that God has told me not to be silent, but to proclaim the freedom He purchased for me on the cross. Meanwhile another gospel is being proclaimed that says just hush up and love the person and stay out of their business. Here is what Paul has to say about that.
“I am astonished that you are so quickly deserting the one who called you to live in the grace of Christ and are turning to a different gospel— 7 which is really no gospel at all. Evidently some people are throwing you into confusion and are trying to pervert the gospel of Christ. 8 But even if we or an angel from heaven should preach a gospel other than the one we preached to you, let them be under God’s curse! 9 As we have already said, so now I say again: If anybody is preaching to you a gospel other than what you accepted, let them be under God’s curse! 10 Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.” Galatians 1:1-10
In order to be the disciples that Jesus commissioned us to be, we need to embrace one another and lift each other up for healing and divine guidance. If we don’t commune on earth, I don’t think we will realize the transformation that God intends for us in preparation for heaven.
Our presentations are developed to bring us together before Christ and to claim the victory and healing He freely offers every one of us.
Thanks so much for your great questions.
Mr.Wayyne, I Praise the Lord for this videos and your personal testimony on how Jesus has help you and giving you victory in your personal life…I’ts very easy to “Judge” a person or better put “Condemn” and individual for his/her tendencies to sin, it’s easy to quote the bible to somebody and say, go and sin no more, when that person doesn’t struggle with same problem the poor individual is struggling with…The Reason I say this, its because I never understood how God would allowed men and women to be born with such a tendencies. I know that some of the homosexual behaviors are either hereditary or, what’s the other word I’m looking for implanted if that make sense.. I never understood and to be honest with you, I never care or try to care until, my sister gave birth to this beautiful boy, my first nephew, the first things i said to myself when i saw this miracle of life, is that i would take him to play all type of sports, what it would be like to talk with him about girls, etc… My nephews father was in and out of my nephews life, my sister try to savage her marriage by keeping up with his abusive behavior towards her and i supposed the baby. I dont know if my ex brother in law ever attempted to abuse my nephew, at least my nephew never ever said anything, by the way my nephew is no 10 years old. But it brakes my heart that my little boy since i remember hes been attracted to other boys, I realize that from an early age he started to like to play with girls and like what other girls like. I try to switch his mind to do what boys like to do and he did it, but always went back to like girly stuff i may say. Until a couple years ago, he confessed that He is attracted to other boys he was 8, He cried and told us, that even though he knows is not what Jesus likes, He just cant help to have those feelings. as an Uncle, every time i see how he behaves and the kind of stuff he rather likes to do, it really hurts me, cause I dont know what to say, what to do, or how to help? My family are constantly praying for a “Miracle”… I spoke to a pastor and told me that, if we take my nephew to a professional, he is certain that my nephew will be free from it, but I just don’t know… My sister its been divorce for may years now, and her ex dont even visit (Thank God) but an an only brother I’ve taking to myself to be the man in my nephews life…But I feel handicap, and thats why im writing you this, to see if you can educate me or guide me in what to do… Once again I praise God for you ministry and My God bless you and keep you…
We have come to a level of expectation of instant fixes in society today. Or some might refer to them as miracles. Of course Jesus can perform any miracle He sees fit. I believe we should ask ourselves if the change of sexual orientation is what really pleases God. Does He just want us to have sex with the opposite gender, or is He seeking something of greater depth?
He could have created attraction to women in me at any stage of my life. But what if after such a change… I could not get enough of women? Hmmm well the miracle would have been all for nothing wouldn’t it?
For years many have prayed ..”Please God make me straight!” or “Please God, make my son or daughter straight!” But by what I have written above, you can see that that may not be the plan or will of God. I believe what God is really seeking in those who are petitioning Him, is an intimate, personal, trusting relationship with Him where we turn our every thought and desire over to Him and allow Him to heal us as we claim the victory He has already won for us.
It may not even be His will that we have sex. He may be His will for some to be celibate, as it is for many … even heterosexual….unless He directs them to that one life mate.
Change is possible with Jesus. But it is not a sexual change that Jesus is seeking… so much as it is a change in our dependance, trust and faith in Him. This is not feeling based. And since homosexuality is sooo feeling based, it would make sense that Jesus wants to gain our full trust and belief in Him.
This is something you don’t get from reparative therapy. Reparative therapy simply seeks to guarantee that they can make gay people straight… and then we are back to how this post began. This change does not draw the individual to Jesus. It keeps their focus on self and seeking to fulfill and expectation from society and what they guess to be God’s will. A big difference.
I would strongly discourage taking someone to a therapist rather than putting them in touch with discovering God’s truth, love and plan for their life. Jesus need not have us fall in love with every member of the opposite sex. But simply be aware of His leading us to that one person for whom we are guided by Christ.
Our emphasis today has been heavily influenced by the overwhelming focus that Satan has cultivated regarding sex instead of pointing to Jesus and building a trusting relationship with Him.
Today I bear the scars of the many decisions I made that satisfied the flesh instead of seeking to please my Creator. But He IS healing me and I claim that victory daily. There is no hereditary or cultivated sin from which God cannot rescue us from. Philippians 4:13 tells us that all things are possible to those who love Him.
John 8:32 promises that the truth will set us free. I keep claiming His promises and I believe He is healing and reclaiming my life.
We all are in need of the constant abiding in Christ that will rescue us from ANY sin temptation.
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your
God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my
righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
God bless you.. I continually pray for all who will hear the voice of Jesus calling them.
God bless you Caliche! God is truly an amazing and powerful God. He knows how to reach us and what we need to learn from Him. He wants us to recognize that we are totally and completely dependent upon Him.
That sometimes means that we talk a long walk away from Him rather than toward Him. But He keeps holding on as long as He knows that we will one day respond to His tender and compassionate love.
Truly surrendering to Him and abiding in Him is our only hope. God bless you! Wayne
I wish I could express how glad I am for your testimony! There is a huge need for your ministry, as I’m sure you know. I am a spiritual mother of some young people who have left the SDA church under similar circumstances to yours. The Lord keeps giving me opportunities to express the thought that He has plans for each of His children, regardless of the temptations and tendencies to sin that they may be bombarded with. They are His children, just as much as anyone. And we are all broken and in need of healing in one way or another. Our church’s silence and lack of ability to minister to those with sexual temptation, no matter which orientation it falls under, has allowed the enemy to gain far too many victories. Thank you for your insights, and work in this area. I will be praying for your ministry and safe-keeping as I continue to pray for my spiritual children … God bless!
know you would want to know! My seventh grade best friend, dear Christ filled Academy
roommate Judy’s trip back to Oregon was one of the many motivating factors in
my decision to return to my roots and the Adventist faith I was raised to
believe in. Our trip down Laurelwood Academy, Adventist church memory lane and her
statement that it is the Holy Spirit’s job to convict us to do right from wrong
was my inspiration. You would be please to know the Holy Spirit has lead me
attend Sabbath church services the past two weeks!
journey back to my roots has been over several decades. Back in my thirties I explored other faiths
and church services some Sabbath keeping. My near brush with death in 2004 over
the Siskiyou Mountains was a huge turning point for me. I knew without a doubt
God spared my life for a purpose. I read the New Testament part of the
scriptures, Desire of Ages, The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren. I never quit
believing in God or Jesus the Son of God. But I had to find and read “The Grace
Awakening, Believing in Grace is one thing. Living it is another!” by Charles
R. Swindoll. Hearing Pastor Dale
Cardwell speak and visit with him after services in August, listen to Wayne
Blakely speak and founder of “Know His Love Ministry” last Sabbath “I had a
conversion of the heart” Praise GOD!
told Del I wanted to be re-baptized and start going to church again. I am
thrilled to tell you, my husband of 17 years Del also agreed to study with me
the Adventist faith. We will be starting that process after his hunting season
after Thanksgiving week! I know the devil has been working very hard. He used other
church members, my sexual abuse as a child, my ex-husbands, my clothes, my Bible
thumping hell and brimstone preaching dad, and cousin, etc to keep me mixed up
and wandering in my own dry and barren wilderness for 35 years. Now I want to
come to Jesus and abide in Him! I know the angels are rejoicing in heaven, as I
am weeping right now!
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